I missed it

I was not looking, I forgot to see, I was looking the other way, i closed my eyes just for a minute, all the signs where there.. Big neon one's with the flashing arrows. But i just didnt want to look at it. I thought i knew what i was doing, I have been doing this for almost a year now. I know how it has to been done, I know if i start off on the right foot i will finish with my head healed high and the extra spring in my step. I know how to say no and keep walking. I know what the feeling is like for a complement to come your way because I knew how to say no.
BUT today was not like that, Today was about for filling a need that i over looked and I for filled it all wrong. I forgot to think before I agreed, I forgot to think it though. I just plain forgot.

So now i am in that place that is here nor there. I place where i have to sit up and right my wrongs or just keep being the winger. A place where the walls, the floors and the roof have bad memory stains. It smells, of everything i dislike about me. A place where i use to live.. I hate this place. Thats why I mentally moved out to a field with the ocean out the back a play ground for the mind you might say. I want to get back to my new home of dreams where there is no walls, floors or roof. There is no box that can contain me and i live free with exsitment, dance, family, and the ever mind set that any thing is possible. That is my true home. I have to get out Of this place and feel the sun on my skin...
One foot in front out the other. One breath at a time. I will regain my balance, I will regain my mental state of mind. With my focus I will find the door. With my knowlegde I know where to start and with my motivation I will blow this ugly place apart.

Bad day for eating but i will make it right!
This is today's challenge I wonder what tomorrow will bring.

ox Trace